My last family Christmas.

This year marked the last family Christmas at my Grandmother's house that I will ever attend. This may sound like a horrible, sad thing, but it's really not- in fact, the reason it will be the last here is because all further holidays will be held at my house. I have great memories of Christmas and holiday times in general with my family, but we've all slowly drifted apart due to sickness and marriage and such. I'm so excited that Will and I will be able to have Christmas at our house, and I'm already planning it out, haha. :)

I spent Christmas Eve with Will's family- we went to his church's Christmas Eve service, and then back to his grandparent's house for eggnog and cookies. Christmas Day was spent with my family, with Will joining us later, after he had finished with his family in the morning. It was a little awkward before he got there- my uncle and his wife came over with his son, but they didn't bring her three kids. Weird.

Anyway, my Christmas holiday was overall very nice and I can't wait for next year at my place. :3

My haul this year (and from who, too):

     Mom: earrings, a bracelet, $50 cash, rain boots, angry birds keychain, angry birds magnets (for our fridge!)
     Granny: $100 cash
     Dad/Virginia: $50 to Olive Garden, cookies, scarf/hat/gloves set
     Will: Guesstures, a kitten salt and pepper shaker set
     David: $15 to Bath and Body Works
     David/Sarah: sugar free bridge mix, $30 to Best Buy, $25 to Cracker Barrel
     Will's Grandparents: $50 check
     Will's Parents: crochet/knitting patterns, crochet hooks, stitch markers, $50 to Home Depot, various other small, useful items
     Blair: New Professor Layton game, $30 to Barnes and Noble
     Julia/Erwin/Lily: a book about Unuseless Japanese Inventions, French White Corningware

All in all, it was a great Christmas. Will and I got some house stuff, and I received some nice and useful gifts.

There are certain traditions that I will steal from both sides of the family (like where Will's mom makes all the "kids" stockings full of useful things, and where the family all eats dinner together from both sides) but I can't wait to start making my own traditions with Will (and maybe some eventual kids ;P).


I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! This was a sorta belated blog post, haha. Happy holidays, all. :)

:( *sniffles*

I have a cold. :(

But! I have three days off next week, which means fun times~ Hanging out with the fiance and his family on Sunday, and going to see a caterer on Tuesday. Whoo!

uhhh... I don't know what else to talk about. D:

Oh! If anyone has any ideas for Halloween costumes, give me some! Currently I'm debating on a sexy nurse outfit or something to celebrate my weight loss, haha. We took my measurements last night and I've lost a combined total of 14 inches!!!!!! SO EXCITED

Arby's Jalapeno Bites

I cried over Arby's Jalapeno Bites.

...Lemme start at the beginning.

After work yesterday, I was heading over to Will's place for some "quality time" (aka to watch his house play DnD) and was craving some Arby's, specifically their Jalapeno Bites. If I had known they had stopped carrying them as of July 1st, I would have gone and gotten food at one of the four Burger Kings I passed along the way.

But I was determined. I sat in traffic for 30 minutes, increasing my already long drive to an hour, impatient to see Will, and ravenous to boot. My day had been crappy (everything I do is wrong, of course) and I could not wait to ingest unhealthy but delicious jalapeno bites. And see Will, of course, but I was really, REALLY, fucking hungry.

Anyway. Passed four Burger Kings to get my damn Jalapeno bites and they stopped carrying them. Ended up ordering a salad instead, which was the only thing on the menu I could really eat on my diet. Went over to Will's, sat in my car for 10 minutes, and cried like a baby.

Apparently, Arby's Jalapeno Bites were the only thing keeping me sane and away from becoming a homicidal maniac.

After calming down a bit (I felt slightly better, but still emotionally compromised) I went inside, ate, and watched Will and all his housemates, including a few more people, campaign for a couple hours. Will made me delicious coffee, because I was freezing even under a blanket, and as soon as campaign was over left to go back to his parent's place, where he was staying while they are out of town. I also went home, sad that we didn't get to spend more time together, since I won't see him for almost 2 weeks due to work and Otakon.

Today, I am still depressed over the jalapeno bites (yes, it was a blow to my already horrible mindset, shush) and do not want to eat any of the food in the house. I have had a salad, which I am sick and tired of. I've lost 12 pounds in 3 weeks, however, which is good. But I'm STARVING FOR SOME FUCKING JALAPENO BITES. Why, cravings, whhhhyyyy???

RIP, Arby's Jalapeno Bites. You shall be missed, and hopefully I can find a good recipe for them soon.

One Word About Graduation Weekend: SUCCESS

This post is long overdue...I started writing it a day or two after graduation, but never got around to finishing/posting it. So, here it is.

I walked on Saturday, May 7th, for graduation, with about a billion of my friends (actually, like 10-15 were at my graduation, and another 5 or so graduated later in the day). We were all in a line, and walked together, sat together, and graduated together. It was pretty awesome :)

The ceremony was long, but well-worth sitting through. My feet still hurt like hell from the giant blisters I got while walking (they took us way out of the way to walk over the seal :/) but it was a good day. A long day, but a good day. Will had to go to work at 11:30, and I was really worried that he wouldn't get to see me walk because of it...I walked across the stage right around 11am, and he left right after, so he got to see me. :D

Later that night, I had my graduation party. I mean, engagement party. I mean...EVERYTHING PARTY. Graduation, engagement, AND my cousin's birthday. We had a TON of food...way too much. DX I wanted people to bring food instead of presents, so my parents wouldn't have to cook as much, but mom and Granny still were crazy and made waaaaaaaaaaay too much food.

I ended up getting money from my family and Will's, and Will gave me The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, a very large book containing all five novels and one short story. I'm currently halfway through the fourth book~

I had an okay time at the party...30 people came, including friends and family. I didn't really get to eat because I was trying to talk to everyone, and I felt that I didn't have enough time to talk to everyone, and that not everyone was having a good time. >____< Mainly, it was just stressful.

Before and after I felt like I shouldn't have had the party, especially after my Grandma decided to tell me how much it cost...she's been suuuper bitchy, due to being tired, I guess. Anyway...I was pretty upset, and still kinda am. I really can't wait to move out- I can have pets, and parties, and friends over to hang out.

I think I'm already planning my housewarming party. XD

Anyway, glad to be graduated. :3 Diploma is on the way~

The Deep Dark Spiral of Death, Doom, and Despair

Lately, I’ve been having a LOT more bad days than good. It’s like every time something bad happens, I go into a spiral of darkness and despair, where everything I do and say is depressing, nothing makes me happy, and everyone and everything just SUCKS. During these moments, I am prone to violent outbursts, crying fits, intense panic attacks, and have a general “stay the fuck away and leave me alone” attitude.

This semester has been filled with them. I honestly cannot remember a day where I was truly happy- there have been moments where I was having fun, I think, but nothing really memorable. When Will is around, I’m okay, but not even he can reverse the spiral and the way it affects me. He keeps it at bay for a little while, but it always comes back.

Anyway, currently freaking out that I’m not going to graduate this semester…this year, even. Intermediate Biochemistry was my downfall last year, too, and taking it this semester proved to be a horrible, hateful idea. This class, mixed with all the stress of working, running a club, all my other classes, and family shit was the worst idea in the world. I need at least a C to pass and graduate on time.

I have no idea how I did on that final. I guess we’ll see soon enough. I just really wish teachers wouldn’t say one thing and then take it back. :/