The truth about fear

I started to write something here, but I deleted it. They say the truth can be liberating, but fear has a pretty strong grip.

I wrote something.

Long time no see, blogosphere.

I've been crazy lately, not at all in the right mindset for anything. I may as well admit it somewhere, if not here. Lots of doctors appointments have been happening, with little results. I'm still as sick as I was, if not worse, so. Oooohh well.

Wedding planning has been...happening? Mostly with/without me, but that doesn't make sense to you, does it? I mean to say that I've been going and doing these things, but have not been happy about them. I haven't been happy about anything.

Anyway. I wrote something tonight- I don't know if it'll evolve into anything more, but I'm tired of hiding all the shit I've written in my computer or whatever, so I'm posting it here. Maybe it'll get my ass into gear.