Arby's Jalapeno Bites

I cried over Arby's Jalapeno Bites.

...Lemme start at the beginning.

After work yesterday, I was heading over to Will's place for some "quality time" (aka to watch his house play DnD) and was craving some Arby's, specifically their Jalapeno Bites. If I had known they had stopped carrying them as of July 1st, I would have gone and gotten food at one of the four Burger Kings I passed along the way.

But I was determined. I sat in traffic for 30 minutes, increasing my already long drive to an hour, impatient to see Will, and ravenous to boot. My day had been crappy (everything I do is wrong, of course) and I could not wait to ingest unhealthy but delicious jalapeno bites. And see Will, of course, but I was really, REALLY, fucking hungry.

Anyway. Passed four Burger Kings to get my damn Jalapeno bites and they stopped carrying them. Ended up ordering a salad instead, which was the only thing on the menu I could really eat on my diet. Went over to Will's, sat in my car for 10 minutes, and cried like a baby.

Apparently, Arby's Jalapeno Bites were the only thing keeping me sane and away from becoming a homicidal maniac.

After calming down a bit (I felt slightly better, but still emotionally compromised) I went inside, ate, and watched Will and all his housemates, including a few more people, campaign for a couple hours. Will made me delicious coffee, because I was freezing even under a blanket, and as soon as campaign was over left to go back to his parent's place, where he was staying while they are out of town. I also went home, sad that we didn't get to spend more time together, since I won't see him for almost 2 weeks due to work and Otakon.

Today, I am still depressed over the jalapeno bites (yes, it was a blow to my already horrible mindset, shush) and do not want to eat any of the food in the house. I have had a salad, which I am sick and tired of. I've lost 12 pounds in 3 weeks, however, which is good. But I'm STARVING FOR SOME FUCKING JALAPENO BITES. Why, cravings, whhhhyyyy???

RIP, Arby's Jalapeno Bites. You shall be missed, and hopefully I can find a good recipe for them soon.

I wrote something.

Long time no see, blogosphere.

I've been crazy lately, not at all in the right mindset for anything. I may as well admit it somewhere, if not here. Lots of doctors appointments have been happening, with little results. I'm still as sick as I was, if not worse, so. Oooohh well.

Wedding planning has been...happening? Mostly with/without me, but that doesn't make sense to you, does it? I mean to say that I've been going and doing these things, but have not been happy about them. I haven't been happy about anything.

Anyway. I wrote something tonight- I don't know if it'll evolve into anything more, but I'm tired of hiding all the shit I've written in my computer or whatever, so I'm posting it here. Maybe it'll get my ass into gear.